So weird lately - it seems that people from the past are reaching out to find me. I love it, don't get me wrong - but it is odd nonetheless. Various people, old friends and general acquaintances. Just this morning I came in to find an email from a girl that I went to college with my first year. We weren't really friends, just knew each other through a mutual boyfriend - Jay. She had dated him previously and he was my best friend that year of college. I met Jay through his roommate Eric. Eric and I dated for a bit and Jay and I quickly became best friends that year. We did everything together and it was purely platonic. He was a great friend to hang out with and we had so much fun together. It wasn't until the next fall that we finally started dating. Then it was a long distance affair, he lived in Toledo still going to school there and I was back in Canton OH. (Since being kicked out of school due to my grades!!) Sigh, the old days! Anyway, we dated for about 3 years or so - I was sure he was "the ONE" and that we were going to live the fairy tale life. I loved his family, they loved me, my family loved him and well you get the picture. Then he was sent to Germany for 4 months during Desert Storm, he was in the National Guard, and when he came back - it was just ... different. It was labor day weekend, and I was in Toledo with him. We were laying in bed together when he tells me that he has found someone else. We sat up and talked all night, it was incredibly hard - but good at the same time. The 4 hour drive home the next day was probably the hardest thing that I ever had to do. I was broken and miserable, of course I thought that I would never love again - at least not like that - and blah, blah, blah! We all know that didn't happen! One of those things - that happen for a reason, I would never have met Fuddy Duddy without that part in the chain of events. Makes you think about the "what ifs" and the "what could have been" sometimes, how things just fall into place and if you hadn't done that one particular thing - no matter how small and insignificant - you might have missed out on meeting your one true love. Your soul mate. But, I go on and babble - sorry - just thinking about it all, and being all introspective - makes me think, that's all. Things that get stirred up by voices from the past. I do wonder what Jay is up to - Last I heard he had married the girl that he left me for and they had moved to NCarolina. They were in the process of getting a divorce though, she was cheating on him with a friend. They had 2 kids and that was part of the mess. I hate that for him. But of course, I did find "my one" and ended up living MY fairy tale!
I know this was long and probably didn't make alot of sense... thanks for staying with me! How about you? Any voices from the past that you would like to reach out and touch?
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